The friend of mine who had a bone marrow transplant saw a Reiki practitioner a few times over the course of his treatment. I wasn't with him when he went, but he swore it made a difference. (He's now almost 11 years post-transplant and (fingers crossed and knock on Elijah) still in remission.)

Also, my brother and his best friend had an apartment at college that was no-shit haunted. They came to me for crosses and crucifixes (which, as far as I know, only made them feel better because they *thought* it would), and they got a priest to come bless the apartment - and yay, no more ghosty stuff. That's more religion-oriented than you're mentioning, so I don't know if it's any help. :(

Have you been to a therapist just to *talk*? I never thought that would help me, and had never been until year before last when I hit a major low - and. surprisingly (to me), it helped immensely to be able to talk to someone with absolutely no vested interest. Not that I'm PollyAnna now, by any means, but it helped *some*.

Hang in there - I know it's hard. I can't even tell you that it will all be worth it. And I know I don't *know* you, but you come across as brilliant and resourceful and strong, and that's worth a lot. <3