Maybe because Sam already went through three months of grieving for Dean in MS he dealt with it differently now?
I think a strong case could be made for it. He saw the worst it could be, and -- consciously or subconsciously -- changed his own responses when the real thing came to pass.
I can't stop thinking about the moment you mention, when Dean silently gets his bag out and starts to pack. It WAS melodramatic, in many ways -- but melodrama is basically drama, and poor Dean saw the writing on the wall there. Although this is out of character for Dean, who will ultimately accept anything Sam throws at him -- I wanted to see Dean snap, to see him simply LEAVE. He wouldn't, and didn't, and show is never going there, but that's ME inside there going, "DUDE. You're RIGHT. Go -- do something else for a while, get some space."
But I suspect that part of MY reaction was simply Sam's bald-faced lying about the whole Ruby/powerz issue. And this week's ep, even with all its revelations, did not comfort me -- Sam will not stop poking Dean about his memories of Hell, and I feel certain we will see more of that this coming week. Sam's moral code is so ambiguous -- it's okay for HIM to lie, it's okay for HIM to have secrets, but even with something as bedrock personal as one's existence in PERDITION -- if it's Dean's, it's also SAM'S. By Sam's measure. He'll pick at him until he gets those memories, because in some way, by Sam's determination, Dean doesn't get to KEEP that. He must share it with Sam, even when Sam has easily and quickly chosen earlier in the year not to do the same. Because what is Sam's is not, really, Dean's. It only works one way.
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Date: 2008-11-16 05:05 pm (UTC)I think a strong case could be made for it. He saw the worst it could be, and -- consciously or subconsciously -- changed his own responses when the real thing came to pass.
I can't stop thinking about the moment you mention, when Dean silently gets his bag out and starts to pack. It WAS melodramatic, in many ways -- but melodrama is basically drama, and poor Dean saw the writing on the wall there. Although this is out of character for Dean, who will ultimately accept anything Sam throws at him -- I wanted to see Dean snap, to see him simply LEAVE. He wouldn't, and didn't, and show is never going there, but that's ME inside there going, "DUDE. You're RIGHT. Go -- do something else for a while, get some space."
But I suspect that part of MY reaction was simply Sam's bald-faced lying about the whole Ruby/powerz issue. And this week's ep, even with all its revelations, did not comfort me -- Sam will not stop poking Dean about his memories of Hell, and I feel certain we will see more of that this coming week. Sam's moral code is so ambiguous -- it's okay for HIM to lie, it's okay for HIM to have secrets, but even with something as bedrock personal as one's existence in PERDITION -- if it's Dean's, it's also SAM'S. By Sam's measure. He'll pick at him until he gets those memories, because in some way, by Sam's determination, Dean doesn't get to KEEP that. He must share it with Sam, even when Sam has easily and quickly chosen earlier in the year not to do the same. Because what is Sam's is not, really, Dean's. It only works one way.