Last word on 5:09
Nov. 14th, 2009 07:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
oselleAs long as I'm in a venting mood, here's my last word on Episode 5:09.
Some people loved it, some people hated it, some people were just bored by it, and others saw a lot in the episode that they wanted to critique and analyze in an intelligent way. This post is not intelligent critique. This is my unfiltered, unanalyzed and wholly emotional, unexamined gut reaction, which I've been stewing on for two days.
I remember an episode of Friends in which Rachel found a list that Ross had made, comparing Rachel's "pros and cons" to that of another woman he was seeing. Among the "cons" on Rachel's list were things like that she was silly and a little shallow and worst of all, "just a waitress." Naturally, Rachel was terribly hurt by this and she confronted Ross with it and while I don't remember much that ever took place in Friends, I remember this because there was something so painfully real about it. She said (trying to quote from memory), "Imagine how you would feel if you found out someone had made a list of all the worst things you believed about yourself...and was using them as reasons not to be with you?"
I think most of us somewhere in our minds have that awful little cache of the worst things we believe about ourselves. It doesn't even matter whether they're objectively true or not, they're just in there and probably always will be. Most of the time we don't ever admit them to anyone and we manage to keep them successfully under cover so that we can get on with our lives.
This is at least the second time now that Supernatural, this show that I use for escapism and inspiration and to connect with other people, has figuratively made a list of the worst things I believe about myself...and has put them up on television for people to laugh at. Or at least, for themselves to laugh at. Those things are that I'm ridiculous, that I'm unattractive and worst of all, that my life is dull and pathetic and devoid of meaning. I am a negligible person, resorting to fantasy because I have nothing else.
I suppose if I'd been fortunate or talented or ambitious enough to become a writer or producer or actor I also might hold myself above that homely horde out there and think they were pretty laughable...but I'd like to think I'd be intelligent enought not to write that into the fabric of the the very thing that was so beloved by that horde. Some of you no doubt think that I'm overreacting, or that you're sure that wasn't the show's intent, or that I shouldn't invest any weight in the poorly conceived notions of a not-terribly-sophisticated television show and you've all got a point. But I warned you this was going to be unfiltered and unexamined and from the gut and...this is what from the gut sounds like.
As for Eric Kripke, well, if he's going to take shots at me I'll feel free to take a shot at him. I don't think that anyone running a show that routinely comes in sixth in ratings behind El Nombre del Amor on Univision has any business making fun of his core fanbase. As![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
pdragon76 put it, in my favorite comment about this episode yet, "You are not exempt from gravity." Frankly pal, you haven't even cleared the shark...and that fucker looks hungry. Enjoy the trip down, you arrogant, ignorant jackass.
Some people loved it, some people hated it, some people were just bored by it, and others saw a lot in the episode that they wanted to critique and analyze in an intelligent way. This post is not intelligent critique. This is my unfiltered, unanalyzed and wholly emotional, unexamined gut reaction, which I've been stewing on for two days.
I remember an episode of Friends in which Rachel found a list that Ross had made, comparing Rachel's "pros and cons" to that of another woman he was seeing. Among the "cons" on Rachel's list were things like that she was silly and a little shallow and worst of all, "just a waitress." Naturally, Rachel was terribly hurt by this and she confronted Ross with it and while I don't remember much that ever took place in Friends, I remember this because there was something so painfully real about it. She said (trying to quote from memory), "Imagine how you would feel if you found out someone had made a list of all the worst things you believed about yourself...and was using them as reasons not to be with you?"
I think most of us somewhere in our minds have that awful little cache of the worst things we believe about ourselves. It doesn't even matter whether they're objectively true or not, they're just in there and probably always will be. Most of the time we don't ever admit them to anyone and we manage to keep them successfully under cover so that we can get on with our lives.
This is at least the second time now that Supernatural, this show that I use for escapism and inspiration and to connect with other people, has figuratively made a list of the worst things I believe about myself...and has put them up on television for people to laugh at. Or at least, for themselves to laugh at. Those things are that I'm ridiculous, that I'm unattractive and worst of all, that my life is dull and pathetic and devoid of meaning. I am a negligible person, resorting to fantasy because I have nothing else.
I suppose if I'd been fortunate or talented or ambitious enough to become a writer or producer or actor I also might hold myself above that homely horde out there and think they were pretty laughable...but I'd like to think I'd be intelligent enought not to write that into the fabric of the the very thing that was so beloved by that horde. Some of you no doubt think that I'm overreacting, or that you're sure that wasn't the show's intent, or that I shouldn't invest any weight in the poorly conceived notions of a not-terribly-sophisticated television show and you've all got a point. But I warned you this was going to be unfiltered and unexamined and from the gut and...this is what from the gut sounds like.
As for Eric Kripke, well, if he's going to take shots at me I'll feel free to take a shot at him. I don't think that anyone running a show that routinely comes in sixth in ratings behind El Nombre del Amor on Univision has any business making fun of his core fanbase. As
pdragon76 put it, in my favorite comment about this episode yet, "You are not exempt from gravity." Frankly pal, you haven't even cleared the shark...and that fucker looks hungry. Enjoy the trip down, you arrogant, ignorant jackass.